Toothache 291106

Ah Ber has a terrible toothache. Its the same tooth causing me the terrible pain last year. Last year my pretty face kena swollen one side…like pig head like that….very horrible. Been taking panadol and drinking lots of water, hoping it will not swell like last year. Hoping the pain will go away. The throbbing pain really disturbs my sleep and my thoughts and I cant focus properly.

And the best part is, its the front tooth (NO, not the chipped one, its the one beside it)……aND i CANNOT just pull it out like I wan to….How like tat????? Must do a root canal thingy where they will drill a hole and pull out the nerves…but now they cannot do anything I know cos the nerves are inflammed that’s why it hurts…..

And even if I do this procedure also not confirmed that it will work 100%. And the best part is, the dentist cannot guarantee whether he can correctly get the nerves or not. If the nerves inflammed, the anestatic cannot get thru to it, it will hurt like mad when they do the procedure and if they dun get the correct nerves, it will still hurt after the procedure lor….so…really good luck to me…

Wat to do….my dad has weak gums, my mum has weak teeth so I inherited both lor……nvm la…the most I wear dentures only lor….Bo bian….I jus bear with it hope it will go down…

Tat’s why when me and kenji went to visit Alvin at the hospital yesterday, I told Alvin I going to admit myself in the A&E department COS REALLY SO PAINFUL….

I feel proud of myself today 251106

I felt very proud of myself today. Cos I never knew how patient I was and I didnt know that I would be patient enough to complete wat I set out to do…..and do it so well….

Yesterday before meeting lena I bought a christmas present for my best friend rina. It was something I am sure she likes….it was a wooden doll house. That kind where you need to construct yourself and build it yourself. Working thru it halfway, I nearly gave up when I realised i didnt put in 1 important piece and had to take everything apart and do it all over again…..I nearly died but I strived on….and completed it…..about 4-5hours….

AND I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF lor Picture of the wooden furniture…
Picture of the Wooden Doll House…

The Wooden planks of templates…..need to knock out every single one of them and figure out which one to fix together to make a match…

See whether you can understand the instructions or not lor….I see until I blur…..like seeing double like that…

The wooden bits you must knock out from the board to fix it…see already also headache rite…

But finally, I managed to finish the wooden doll house and was very gung ho doing the furniture even though I NEED SLEEP…… and got myself into another nightmare cos the furniture bits are smaller and must really get the correct ones….

The completed Wooden Doll House..
The stairscase…3 levels house leh…. The Attic port holes…
The Back view of the Wooden Doll House…
The attic window…..so nice rite?

A comparison…
The bay windows…
The chimney…
The Main Door…
The Balcony…

A baby Chair…
A Comparison…
The completed set of furniture…
The dining set…

The bedroom set…

The toilet…
The toilet bowl and basin…
The living room set…
Leisure set, rocking chair, deck chair, rocking horse, piano…

The kitchen set…

ALL Done by me, ah ber…..so happy and proud that I am able to have the incredible patience to do something like that…..but now my finger a bit pain from the pushing of the pieces out from their stencil….but it was worth it when I see Rina’s smile and the sparkle in her eyes tell me she wuv the whole thing very much…

Fri dinner at Makan Sutra 251106

Fri went with Kenji and another 2 friends to have dinner at Makan Sutra at the Esplanade…

The food there is EXPENSIVE lor and NOT NICE TO EAT lor….but I wan to highlight the gong gong…..the gong gong is good….very nice and juicy….and the chicken wing is not bad la….quite juicy also….

Other than that, we had oyster with egg, Char kuay Teow, Ngor Hiang…..and Kilkeny beer…

Gong Gong…VERY NICE

Ngor Hiang….So So Only…

Chay Kway Teow…

Oyster with egg…

BBQ Chicken WIngs……MY FAVOURITE….

Drinking nite 251106

Yesterday was quite happening.

Went to meet Lena near her house and we took a cab together with Jayce down to 57 Chevy at Katong Village.

Kenji and the TFT were having dinner together but I had work so I couldn’t eat the nice nice food….anyway I settled for western food at 57 Chevy….had chicken chop….

57 Chevy was too crowded so we went to a new place called the Crew Bar….and also had live band….but standard not as good as 57 Chevy. Patrick opened a bottle of Chivas (actually Ms Lena wanted to “blunja” me one…..but Mr Patrick was too fast for her). Cos I jio her to drink so she was in a very good mood…got drinking kaki ma….

Then we played games and I lost a few rounds la….we also “ta” (down) a few drinks…..Ms Lena you must be honoured cos I dun usually drink Chivas leh..you know my normal drink rite…..so I drink Chivas with her yesterday lor….but actually Chivas also not bad….maybe my taste bud come back liao….after the last time I puked so badly I stayed away from Chivas, Jim Bean, Tequila and boubon………but now seem to be quite fine…..it churned my tummy but still ok..

I was naughty la…..my monkey tail came out lor…so I disturbed Lena by spitting my mentos into her “valley” lor…..and we had a baton marathon…..jus tat the mentos replaced the batons and our mouths replaced the hands…..and kenji nearly fainted lor…..hiak hiak hiak….

We played card games and nut games (by throwing nuts at each other)….hahahahahah….then at 1.30am we decided to go to KTV….

So I drove me, Lena and Jayce to Partyworld at Orchard where it closes at 6am…..the rest of the guys went home to rest cos they had to wake up early to help Patrick move house at 8am….

We sang all the way till 6am then I sent them home….and went back home….By the time I finally sleep….was 8am….

Believe in Yourself 251106

Believe in Yourself

Self-help, self improvement, motivation, life-coaching?

There is so much material available these days and so many motivational speakers and coaches and self-styled gurus who claim they can change your life that it’s easy to be skeptical about their efficacy.

The truth is, you can read a thousand books, attend a hundred seminars, and hire several life coaches, and it will not make a shred of difference. Or you could just happen to pick up one book or even hear one quote, and be well on your way to achieving your most ambitious goals. It’s not really how much you’re exposed to; more important is what and most crucially, how you respond to it. Before any “self-improvement” can start, something must first click within you. Your “self” is the key.

You know how two people can be shown exactly the same thing and each of them sees completely different things? It’s the same with self-help materials. Before they can even begin to help you, you have to first believe in yourself. How badly do you want to change? Have you prepared your heart to sustain you through the challenges and barriers that will no doubt be in your way? Are you able to re-affirm your self-worth when others begin to lose their faith in you? Do you know precisely what you’re good at and just how valuable you are?

Conviction is everything. Your belief system must be unshakeable.

Many people have big dreams but how many of them truly believe they can make them reality? Successful people continue to be in the minority because attrition swiftly eliminates those whose hearts are not really into it. Doubt and fear gnaw at all our hearts, but those who make it know that these things hold no real power if we choose not to give them any power.

Typically, after a motivational programme, people get all excited, but after a time of not seeing the results that they want, they quit. You know, with all the time invested into it, they probably would’ve been better off not even starting!

These people begin with the thought of “well, let’s see if this works out?” This is not the kind of thinking that will make you successful. Successful people believe it will work out and persevere until it does. Now many people scoff at this and think that the reason successful people have a great attitude is that they are successful. But the opposite is true – successful people are successful because they have a great attitude!

You have to first get into a state of mind that something will work for you. The magic has to happen inside. Then, you will begin to see results.

Words of Wisdom 251106

Words of Wisdom…

1. I Love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am hen I am with you.

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won’t make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to, doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can’t have them.

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

8. Don’t waste your time on a man/woman, who isn’t willing to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don’t cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There’s always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

13. Don’t try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

14. REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

Tomorrow 241106

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day for me….

1. Early in the morn got to wake Kenji up and make sure he goes to work (Cos tonite he staying over at Bradel).

2. Early in the morn I got to exercise with Rina cos she on some diet program and there are some exercises that I can use too…

3. Got work to do in the morn…

4. Dinner with Kenji and TFT at Hyatt Hotel…

5. Nite out with Lena the Merlion and gals from SAVH…

Who wans to join us at this nice pub at Katong Village called 57 Chevy (YES, its the one I lost my wallet in) but I will go back again cos the place is quite good….drinks are FORMIDABLE……4 X 4 horsemen = 1 merlion….and 5-6 jugs of beer = 1 ah ber touching the nose…..hahahahahahahaa..

Wan to see booties shaking? Wan to see pretty ladies TAHHHHHHHHHHHHing? Wan to hear powderful songs you yearn to hear from deep within your heart? Wan to play finger games with pretty babes? Wan to see man and woman cuddling up to each other (Of cos nothing rite…but wat if they are 60year old liao?) ahhaahhaahahahhahahaa…..

Join us…..57 Chevy pub at Katong Village 10pm…..See ya….4 horsemen waiting….I already promised Lena I will on her for 4 horsemen….so anyone who dun have chance see 2 merlions together, THIS IS YOUR CHANCE…..

New Phone 231106

Yesterday Kenji dear brought me out on a date to Marine Parade. He wanted to upgrade his phone and I wanted to get another line too. In the end he got the Dopod 838 Pro, which is a PDA phone. Then I tot wanted to use his old motorola PDA phone but I dun really fancy Motorola, so I decided to get another sony ericsson phone. I simply WVU sony ericsson cos its so user-friendly. And since my personal sony ericsson so lonely I decided to buy it a gf la….so now got 2 sony ericsson phones…..and the best part is, I wanted to get another phone line rite, but the numbers there sucked so the nice counter lady Grace asked me wat numbers I’m looking at she can search for me.

I told her the last 4 digits of my number – 1128, she searched and told me can buy it at $168 – 8333-1128. Sounded really cool rite….Anyway….Kenji asked me to get a number similiar to his so that we can identify with each other ma…..so I asked her to search and I got another really cool number that makes me and him really a couple lor….

That Grace is really good. She’s very warm and willing to help. She looked abit like Viviene (Ms Chan) and when she smiled really look like her…but sorry guys I dun have her number….but you can go to M1 at Marine Parade and her name is grace – shoulder lengthed hair and quite white and nice skin (DUN DROOL OK)…

The buy yesterday…

The Dopod 838 Pro….so nice…I also considering….

After our shopping spree we went for dinner at Sakae Sushi. As usual, before the main course arrived our coloured plates already stacked up high high up into the sky lor – all thanks to Kenji dear lor….this time I contributed a bit la….heehee…

Then when the main course came….really nice…..but I very full already….

The Peach Ice Cream….Very Nice….If my tummy got space I will SQUEEZE it in lor…
Kenji’s Set….

My Set…

COMBINATION…..very tok gong rite…..very very nice…

SICK Dino Family 211106

Yesterday went to JB for grocery shopping together with the devadason family. We are all considering to move to JB cos we will WUV staying there….

Went to do marketing and then brought the children to Danga Bay where there was a children’s carnival. Although it was drizzling but we still went ahead cos everyone was so excited…especially the big kids LIKE ME…..

I went on the merry-go-round. So nice. I wuved going on it when I was young. In fact when I was young i was considered quite fortunate already cos my parents are quite sporty. They brought me and my bro to quite a few fun-fairs….

Maybe it was the rain yesterday cos it rained heavier after the slight drizzle, but today I felt sick.

I think I need to have a wisdom tooth removed (haha – too much wisdom lah…cant be helped) cos its bit swollen and I cant eat properly (haha – good to lose the extra rounds around me). Ok, I’m quite an optimistic gal ok….POSITIVE in life….

My throat is rather raw – the type you get when you know you lack of sleep and didnt drink enough water and you are COMING DOWN WITH THE FLU. And I was up at 8.30am even though I slept at 1plus am yesterday. And going out in the sun at 1oam wasn’t a very good thing for me cos I felt giddy and nauseous (NO I AM NOT PREGNANT).

And the stress of going to the family courts today to settle my dragging case overwhelmed me….the stupid lawyer can ask me if I know anything bout the procedure….PLS LOR….your stupid gal always cock up things for me and she must have cocked up telling me the procedure lor….how many times must I scream at her to get my things done….AND PLS LOR….its my 1st time doing such things lor….no one like to go there for any reason lor.

Felt bit sad over thoughts that went thru my mind and memories that threaten to flood my brain, but glad that everything’s nearly over. When the judge said “Interim judgement to be finalised in 3 mths”…..I was kinda relieved lor…..I hope no one around me should go thru the pain I went thru and experience the whole thing lor…..cos it kinda made me lose faith in marriage and in love and in EVERYTHING. Cos I really almost LOST EVERYTHING precious in my life, lucky I still got good memories left. Lucky I’m a surviver. Lucky I am positive and optimistic. Lucky I am me.

And I wan to thank my family for standing by me no matter wat happened (even though my dad screamed at me without finding out wat actually happened and I actually had to ask him if I was his daughter or he was his son lor), I wan to thank especially my mum who stood by me and my decisions and always called to ask me how was I feeling. My parents actually took Junior to be their grandson….and introduced him to their neighbours as “MY GRANDSON’….

I also wan to thank my best friend Rina who took me in without asking questions and became a mummy to me who made sure I had breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks in-between…..heehee….and no matter if Junior peeed on her carpet or if my tears wetted her pillow, she still wuv me the same…

And also special thanks to Lena aka Fishball or Shitball or Coco’s mummy or Junior’s Godma who was with me when I needed to have a drink to forget my sorrows temporarily and I jus wan you to know …………………………………………………………….. I like you better when you are drunk and start to be crazy LIKE ME and start to shake your booties….hahahahahahahahahaah…..

And not to forget Kenji dear who didnt mind the fact that I cannot commit to him anything and who waited for me till I was ready to walk out from the shadows. And he even took the gusty step to walk into the future with me even though it looked so bleak then. And our love will be a song whose echo will be heard at any part of the world…..**More “deep” than your quote rite..**hiak hiak hiak… Thank you darling for your support and the strength you gave me when I was at one of the lowest point in my life. And thank you for sharing all of my burdens and accepting me as I am.

And all my friends and kakis who heard me and came to lend me helping hands and shoulders to lean on then. Most grateful to all of you who gave me encouraging words and gentle smiles and tell me that everything is going to be alright. Well. YOU ARE RITE…everything’s going to be alright and things are jus about to get better….so you can go and become fortune tellers already cos you already forseen that my life will be better….heehee…

Also thanks to the people who also slapped me awake with their comments. I see that as another way to wake me up…..

And to Mr Foo whom I spent my 6years with – Thank you for the things you have done for me and the love we shared in this wonderful union. Thank you for the good memories I have and everything wonderful that happened while I was still Mrs Foo. I dun bear you any grudges and I dun hate you. I hope you can find someone to treasure and have everlasting love. No matter the things you have done, I sincerely believe that certain things (ONLY certain things, not ALL) that you did was for my own good and even though it hurt me so much to cut off certain friends, I still believe you were looking out for me.

And Thank you Lord for this path cos if it didnt happen on me, it would happen to someone else and I dun think I would like to see this happen to anyone else.

And thank you to Junior my darling son who used to lick my tears off my face whenever I was unhappy and giving me the “question mark” look when I am not smiling (even when I am angry with you…..son) and always reminding me that no matter how dark the future is, it still can NEVER be blacker than him….hiak hiak hiak hiak.

And I need to stop here now cos he is whining and complaining that I spend too much time on my lappy and he wans to use it to update his blog now…so ciao…

PS: You were so near yet so far….

AND I AM STILL FEELING SICK……sore throat, giddy, nauseous…..my darling kenji also down with diarhoea….must drink more water ok darling….And junior jus puked again….think the Dino Family is down with something bad….must boil barley water and chrysanthemum tea already….

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